Must think positive, must think positive….

I have to keep telling myself this over and over. I am stressed out beyond belief and having nightmares.

Yesterday, two things gapped on the pPROM support boards.

1: A pPROM loss mom ruptured through a preventative TVC and lost both of her twins after cord prolapse.

2: A pPROM loss mom had an emergency TVC placed Friday when her cervix was measuring almost nothing and slightly opened. The TVC held until yesterday when she found out she was fully dilated and her son’s membranes were bulging. They can’t even find the TVC. She is 21 weeks. I pray she can hold on and her membranes don’t break.

This has be terrified of my CL check tomorrow. Terrified I will lose my son in the same way I lost my daughters. *breathe*